Like, it’s not what I thought it was going to be, but it’s fine.
I’ve been at University for 7 months now (Where does the time go!?) And so far its been… Average.
I’ll be honest, it’s not what I thought it was going to be. I have met some lovely people but I haven’t quite found a “tribe” that I slot into yet.
The Course is interesting but it doesn’t particularly excite me and the way it is organised (or not organised) makes me want to put my head through a wall.
Having said that, I’m not having an awful time. Not awful enough to consider the mental and emotional upheaval to change Universities anyway.
The city I live in is beautiful (if fucking expensive)
I can feel myself improving as a writer and a person, becoming more self-assured and independent.
Moving away to University is advertised to you as a massive life-altering thing, your last chance to make something of yourself before you settle into the real world and become a dull grown up.
I’m calling bullshit.
It’s just another small section of your life. Absolutely, it comes with its own challenges and emotions that any big change does, but it is not the be all and end all of everything.
The pressure put on young people is astronimical. You don’t know what you are doing yet? Brilliant! You shouldn’t. You’re barely out of the mind bending woods of puberty. Honestly, if you got out of bed today, I’m really proud of you. It’s really fucking hard.
University for me so far has just been about learning how to function as a normal human being. And that definitely wasn’t something I was expecting. Sink, or swim. I’ve been put on survival mode.
I guess this is just a little reassurance. For me, and anyone reading this feeling a similar way. It’s not the end of the world. This is not the making of your entire life, it’s not your ‘last chance’ and it doesn’t have to be the ‘best days of your life.’
Absolutely, make the best of it you can, think yourself grateful for every opportunity that comes your way. But don’t feel disheartened if it’s not the movie-montage you thought it would be.
Anyone else out there feeling a similar way to me? Please?